Thursday, July 21, 2011
All you need is Love.....
....dooo be do be doooooo!
Can I rant for a second? What if I promise that it's a happy rant, not an angry annoying one? Oh, I can? Why, thank you! I love my husband. I mean, really over-the-top, head over heels, fireworks and smiles, love the man I married. Sure, we have our disagreements and angry moments and general annoyance at living in close quarters with another (totally different) human being, but in spite of all that, I still love Andrew. A lot. We are almost through our second year of marriage, and even though we still have a lot to learn about each other, I don't have any regrets about committing to spend my life with him. There's no nagging little voice in my head that wonders how long I'll be 'stuck' with him, and I'm so grateful for that.
I have been married once before. It didn't turn out so well. I don't want to bash my ex, so let me just say that he would make a great husband for someone who shared his beliefs and actually married him for the right reasons. That just wasn't me. I was at a point in my life where all I wanted to do was rebel against my upbringing and this "overbearing" God that my parents worshiped, and he was my way out. Now, he was still a somewhat religious man, so my parents (kind of) approved, and the only way that we would live together is if we married. So, I made the leap, and 10 months later filed for divorce.
Looking back, that first marriage was a mistake, but also an incredible learning experience. They say that hindsight is 20/20, and there's a reason that phrase is so cliche and overused. It's true. I just heard a great sermon a few weeks ago that explained that a lot of people approach marriage with a "what can this person do for me?" attitude, when the approach should be more along the lines of, "how can this person help me be more like Christ?" The first mindset was definitely true the first time I got married. I was insecure, rebellious, and firmly believed that this guy was the only person who would ever love the "unlovable" person that was me. Then, after being on my own and taking a few years to go a little crazy and be a serial dater (that's a fun story, but it'll have to wait.), God found me and showed me Love. Before I found another relationship, before I tried to find fulfillment in another fallible human being, God showed me that He was everything I was looking for. I was searching for romance, and I learned that "God is Love." It wasn't until after I had found everything I needed in Him, that He brought an amazing man into my life who would become my husband and the father of my child (as well as my unwilling photographer while I wait for my tripod to arrive!) I love this man!
And, finally, some outfit shots. I'm still working on the posing of these shots, so you may notice a few things:
a. I'm still stuck on the awkward smile in almost every picture.
b. OMG, is that girl floating? NO, sorry, her feet are just in an awkward position.
c. I really like the pockets on this skirt!
Shirt: Gap Outlet, $7 (one of my scores over the weekend!)
Undershirt: Abercrombie, $12 (super old!)
Skirt: Old Navy from Plato's Closet resale, $2
Necklace: Icing by Claire's, don't remember
Belt: No freakin' idea!
Shoes: Wal-mart, $10 (old)